2 weeks ago, something happened and I want to share it with you all…
I headed back to Avalon (Glastonbury uk), with 2 beautiful sistars for a day of connection, release and renewal. You see I have been working goddess KALI within my life since 2015, it has been bumpy, shedding and oh my, so so liberating.
Stripping me of so much that no longer serves my highest good, it has at times felt have nothing left to shed, laying naked on a vast inner landscape that is so void of anything except space and the odd bit of tumbleweed. She first came to me in a meditation whilst in circle, barefoot and dancing wildly to the beat of her own drum around a ferocious fire whilst screeching. Her hair unkempt and messy yet with a presence that enticed me in, to ask her to work with me in my earthly life at that time. KALI energy certainly came through like a whirlwind, releasing me of so so much and I am truly grateful although at the time I was feeling so much, confusion, abandonment, thrown to the high seas without a lifejacket. She always caught me in every fall and it lifted me higher, to richer and more fertile grounds.
I found out so much about myself, stepping into my authenticity even though not all around me where able to understand or want to maybe.
Back to Avalon 2 weeks ago, we headed up the tor holding gratitude for all that is, sitting at the top chanting, drumming and releasing. A liberating feeling when you feel a build up of crap in your life, the wind blowing without care all around you, blowing away all the cobwebs of unfinished business if you like.
Heading to the goddess temple I had no idea of the profoundness that was about to happen, no idea that my time working with KALI in the way I had been for so long was coming to a close. For I was ready for a new journey after the foundations had been laid firmly by all the shedding over those years.
I sat in the temple, surrounded by cushions and others, holding gratitude for the goddess, I have no idea how long it was that I just sat in that moment. I asked for guidance and instead of what I am used to, I was somewhat handed over, in a beautiful way to a goddess I had never really felt a connection with until that point. I slowly got up to collect a deck of cards, I was instantly drawn to the kuan yin deck which I have always overlooked until then. Shuffling the cards in a peaceful energy that was sitting in solitude with my own energy I asked for clarity., on what was needed for myself to move forwards. As I pulled the cards I was drawn to, I felt different. Lighter maybe, everything seemed brighter, more defined, my eyes closing and yet I could see clearer than ever.
Kuan yin energy embraced me, enveloping me in compassion. A sense of being at peace In a way I hadn’t experienced before to my knowledge. In that moment I knew I was ready for a new journey within myself, a journey of intense self love, compassion for myself and outside of me. My heart felt like it would surely explode with gratitude for all that is. In that moment I knew it was time.
I gave up any fear I had an walked towards the light in kuan yin heart space, allowing it to wash over me, connect in with my own heart energy and it was like a merging at the mouth of a river and an ocean. The experience in that moment was unquantifyable, it was bliss.
It felt like hours that I was suspended in that space, maybe it was minutes but I wasn’t counting, just allowing all to flow. When I felt able to come back to the room, I noticed everyone going about their own inner journies, I felt like I had just had a monumental shift and that is because I had!.
I felt such love, so much more than I thought possible. Getting up and lighting a candle for all in need, I headed back out of the temple. All 3 of us girls had also connected somehow to one another through an energy, the KALI energy. We began to try and explain our experienced with one another as we made our way up the high street, knowing it was now time to head to the springs to renew. I felt a strong urge to head into a book store which wasn’t on my to do list that Sunday and saw kuan yin deck of cards knowing instantly I needed to buy them and begin working with them for myself. Deck in hand we headed to the springs, it was open.to the public, I had always hired out privately when facilitating the ceremony but we stripped headed into the cold waters, surrounded my candles. Again chanting, holding hands in a circle and feeling our ancestors come in close all around us, gathering in circles within circles.
The water was cold, it stinged as it lapped against bare skin, we knew that it was time and each Took it in turns to kneel down in the knee height water, held by the other 2 and completley submerging our bodies into the icy water. Just a second is all it took, as with so many times before. Coming back up feeling so complete, so cleansed and topped up. I screeched as I come back up, eyes still closed from the cold dark water shaking my head and body with the shock of the water and the feeling of rejuvenation, a time of topping up after such a huge day.
We chanted some more and I felt a tear drop down my face, closing one chapter and eager to begin the next. We climbed out of the white springs, truly not believing you could feel any colder, drying and dressing as other also to the plunge into the cold healing and sacred waters.
Coming back into the light of day from the dark comforting space of the springs, it felt like a rebirth, emerging from the womb of Avalon and entering that new chapter feeling so grateful in my heart space. Everything seems so bright, clear and well, new!
We walked back into town to go eat, fueling our physical bodies with amazing vegan foods, our bellies hungry after a day of energetic work. Did I ever tell you I love eating at Excalibur? Lol awesome food.
Excited to go back home and delve into the world of kuan yin, I felt at peace In a way never felt before.
I am truly grateful for all the work I have done with KALI, and now ready to begin again.
Last Sunday was a special day, the anniversary of our beautiful and loving handfasting. A dear sistar who I truly believe to be a soul sistar came around with a gift. I hadn’t spoken of my experience in Avalon to people, not until I write this today as it has taken me this long to find words. She came with a gift and upon opening it, a wooden pendant of kuan yin lay in my hand. A beautiful moment shared between us, a gift given at exactly the right time without knowing all I had experience with kuan yin before. I will hold that with love and grace, giving gratitude to the goddess for allowing me to flow alongside in my our journeying. I have worked with the deck daily since returning home, a moment for myself in what can often become crazy days rolling from one to another. Connecting in with the energy all around us and within us.
Let it begin ❤